Dear 13 Year Old Me,
I know things are tough right now, but I am writing to you and you are now 25. I am sitting beside your amazing husband, in the house you own, with your puppy cuddeling next to you. Life is good. I know that there are days when things seem impossible. You get picked on at school for looking like a boy, you wear baggy sweaters because you think you are fat, and there are days you feel like no one will ever like you. Well, I just wanted to let you know that things will get better. Teenagers can be mean. Remember last year when you recieved a love letter in your locker and you were SO excited that a boy might like you, only to find out it was only a mean prank played on you by those who you called your friends and then those same friends laughed at you when you showed them the letter. You were humiliated. Well remember how your teacher pulled you aside and told your tear staind face that one day you'll open your locked and tons of real love letters will fall out. Well it's true. I don't want to give away too much right now, because I want to leave some of the big surprises for you to experience yourself, but here are a few things that I want to remind you.
Your first kiss. It was nothing memorable nor remarkable. It was the summer before grade 10 and you will not have been kissed. You will feel as though you can't go into high school without ever being kissed, so that summer while in Goodsoil you met some guy. A random guy who was kind of a loser and whom you will not even remember his name. But, you so desperately want to have your first kiss and you were so thrilled that someone is interested in you that you wasted your first kiss on him. My advice, pass by that guy in Goodsoil and wait because you want to remember every detail and at the very least the name of the boy whom you kissed for the first time. Trust me, there will be more boys who are interested in you. Infact you meet your first boy friend in that first week of high school, he should be your first kiss.
You will have your heart broken more than once. Looking back you will have only have fallen in love twice, but you will only have one soul mate. Your Champ. You`ll know him when you meet him I promise, and trust me he is worth all the heart break that gets you to that exact moment that you meet him.
You will dream big, and you will be able to do anything you set your mind to, despite alot of sceptics in your life who try to convince you otherwise. So don't listen to what anyone else says, because one thing I've learned is nothing is impossible. Work hard and step by step you will get there. But I just want to remind you that sometimes our dreams don't always turn out to be as amazing as you thought. Instead of dwelling on that, dream new dreams, but no matter what never stop dreaming.
Your family is your biggest ally. I know it may not seem like that right now, and trust me you will fight bitterly with them all for the next couple of years. But they will become your best friends. I could not imagine my life without talking to my mom every night, and having nights out with my dad and my siblings. They will always have your back, and they are your biggest fans. Also, although the dynamic of your family will change, I promise it will eventually open the door to more love. More people that you will have the honour to know and call part of your family.
Finally learn to love yourself. You are exactly as God made you. You will become the person that you were meant to be. Don`t try to change for anyone.
Well, I will be seeing you in the next 12 years. Remember that every up and down that you go through makes you the person that you are today. Learn from your mistakes and the struggles, and enjoy every victory and dream that comes true.
Sincerely,
your 25 year old self.
